Monday, April 27, 2009
Just came back from Sunway lagoon ytd. The trip was fun, food was soo cheap. Everyday eat till going to explode sia. However, missed home though cos ytd came back and stright away went back to camp cos today morning got parade. But came back early today, like finally ^_^ I'm not a theme park person, so cant really judge how good is the theme park but just to experience the place and for suntanning. Food there is damn worth it but spend most on food. The trip is relaxing and fun. Should go with more other friends.
Went TP band for tune in. I expected to have many people but this time is so much till we have to go audi for tune in, band rm cant squeeze that much ppl. -_-` Overall, its fun and i finally saw mr tan. ^_^ Haha.
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Friday, April 10, 2009
Today is good friday and i dident rot at home today but went out with Weida. Haha, werid hur. This is the second time i went out with him, first was last yr before i enlist, we watched get smart. Actually ed and ht was suppose to go with us but they had something on. Nvm bah. So we decided to play bowling, first we went safra; FuLL! then we went ehub; EVEN FULLER! :( End up, we went for a movie. Watched Shinjuku incident which was intrestingly bloody and its just hard to belive that gangsterizem plays a big role in Japan, just donno weather was it real or not. Oh yeah, the most intresting thing is that we sat at a couple sit!!! LOL. Super werid. but its the best sit, middle and far behind. Thx weida.
Will having dinner today, i saw an old lady working as a table cleaner. It makes me wonder, why is she working? I list out a few possiblities.
1. She is bored at home
2. She has no body to support her.
3. Her children doesent want her.
To me, these fokes work to pass time, i will accept it and just leave it. However, if her children doesent take care of her, i just don't know what to think about that. Parent are dear to us, they were the ones who make live for us so we must take care of them when they grow old. If it werent for them, then we wont be living. Make the pain our mother had be worth it. One day, we will be like them and i couldent imgine, what of me.
Come to think of it, if we were to keep our own plates in food courts and stuff, how good can it be? We see less fokes working, BUT we are not giveing them job! Things can never be good for you. Must be contented of what you have. Am i? Hmmm... How complicated things can be~
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
This is all about me; I know all along, i have been blinded by light all by myself, leaving my shadows behind me. However when light come closer, shadow will grow bigger. My light back fires. I felt everything came hunting me and at the same time, i came to relised that things happening to me has a reason. I want a happy life. A life which i can life without having to think about what is going to happen tml and everyday become a new day.
I want someone who i could talk to when i am upset, someone who will appear when i am in need, someone who plays with me, someone who talks to me till i fall asleep, someone who wake up early to buy breakfast for me, someone who comfort me when i feel scare, someone who realised my need, someone who squeeze my nose when i hi-cup, someone who know where i put my stuff around, someone who love me for who i am. So many things i expect, how to fulfill?
Now is what i was, someone whom i dont want to be. I though i wont goes into this state again when i feel life is so boring, so fustrating. I would rather stay happy and nothing bothers me. Thats why my hobby, playing games is for. To let me escape what i am now, to forget what is needed to be forgotten.
I don not have to courage to move on. I'm just doing what we both wanted all along. Everytime will be going to be the same. Different views, differences.
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Sunday, April 05, 2009
Serious, come to think of it, last few weeks of my life was quite busy, my time flies so quickly. This week i realised i am seldom at home, everdays was out. No matters. Anyway, today had COG which i think it was funny when Cheng said his lyer fell out any he had no choice but to hold his score under his armpits. Hehe~ Seriously, just LOL! haha. Anyway, thx ed, weida and jiun ren for coming to watch.
Anyway, i realised, its not that i had a disablity but acutally, i lost the ablity to express my emotions. When i discover that our brain is an amaxing and powerful thing, its too late le. When i forget, my some of my emotions dissipate with it. In one situation, there can be many outcome. Take a simple example, if someone break your flavorate vase, there are two ways to the outcome. 1, is to be angry and 2, is to forget it and say things can be brough if broken but feelings cant be amend if it gets serious. Both of these outcome will then come to a conclusion. If you choose angry, things can be bad; friendship might be lost or stumble abit. If you chose to forget, there might be a chance that you forget an emotion. It acutally an act of one simple tool; the mind. Forgeting things can be a good things at time, but everything must have a balance. If you keep forgeting, you will end up like me.
I still love Popolocrois!
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Saturday, April 04, 2009
I come to realise that i need money. When i walked around PS that day, so many things caught my eyes especially at the top floor. Haha. Come to think of it, they are acutally not that important but i just want it and i cant belive that i'm still thinking of wanting it. Haha. I just wanna win toto! HAHAHAHA! then i can go aus study without worring. No matters. I'm short of cash this days, then this month got so many program. Awhile go JB then a while wanna go Sunway laugon = Kaching draining. The more i think of that, i felt i'm becoming more money minded which something i dont want to be. No matter how poor i am, i dont wannt put money as the first piroty of my life. No matters.
I found another disability in me; unable to show emotion. Love me for who I am.
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
Took off today and went to SYF for my sec school competition.. Ahh... It brings back lots of memories which includes when i was competing and when i was watching. Too bad they got bronze and when before us was a school that plays the same things... Maybe its because its the school bah. Like some sorts of curse. LOL! Haiya... Forget it. Anyway, i belive that they could do it de. They really improved and sound there, they did their best i belive, the problem is the school! Anyway, i really think the school has problem. After syf, the school have a rehearsal for speach day under the hot sun. I jsut cant belive it. AFTER SYF! When everyone is moody, tired and just wanna rest. What is wrong with these people now a days, never think. No matter. My point is, this is the first time i am leading in a band for a parade sia, why?, complicated. The main thing is, the experience is quite fun. Thx to my current job, i know how all any parade like, thats why i decided to take the band. Parade everywhere is just parades... No diff sia... Haha.
What will be next?
^_^ i love me! ^_^
