Sunday, November 30, 2008
It's always the end of the month that i felt i need someone whom can accompany to watch movie, to watch drama, to do things together, to play games together. the worse thing is i am alone. I may not know what happen at times, but i wish that i am being told of what had happen. Why must everytime make me feel bad? I wanted to keep this to my self but i need to tell you. I actually felt insecure because where were you? does talking help? at the end of the month, i felt worried instead of happy. I've gave myself so many chances but it end up the same. We need to talk. I want to know what is worng. What is really happening... Its so sad-dening...
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Friday, November 28, 2008
Today will have a rehearsal for my second parade. Hope everything will be alright. I'm getting used to the band already. At least im also not worried about staying in. Sometimes i feel staying in wasent a bad thing after all. I guessed i'm used to it already. Haha. At least i feel better in a band. Hope things get better.
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Weekend always past so quickly and now, only left one hour before i need to leave hosue and go back. This whole week i felt so reluctant to go back. Its nothing good. I always have the bad feeling of going back there. I've always had bad feeling this year. I cant settle my life down... I'm afraid of things happening back there. The only things good is that i had all my friends there. And they will be always there.
Now i understand when i always wnana go home le... Cos i need to go home and company my mother. She is lonely at home you know and only left me around; father overseas, sis at husband house. So i always go back and accompany my mother. I actually missed her now cos i haven been seeing her this weekend and im going back soon. Sob. I just dont like staying in. I cant wait for this month to end quickly. Work isent good either... :(
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Today was the first day in the band. All i could say i felt bad. Its almost like the first day in bmt cos i have to stay in. I already have deployment on this thursday and friday. Its so sudden but i felt better when i get to know ppl there. I still have my batch mates there which im so glad. They really cheers me up. ^_^ People must be wondering why i am at home when i am suppose to stay in. Well, as long as i reach there before 0000 to sleep, nothing goes wrong. Means i can go anywhere and do anything after work. Which is so much better then bmt. Phiew~
This year is coming to an end and i start to realise that this year has past so sudden, fast and ever changing. I hate the feeling of new, changing life. I have to start worring of things everytime. First is guaduation from poly, then working after poly, next is geting posted into bmt and into bmt. When i am getting used to bmt, i guaduated from there and posted to band. Lastly, when i started to love training wing, im being posted to band A. I hope nothing changes. I just wnana get used to soemthign and stay there. Im aways getting wroried and stuff. I just want things to settle down. Pls~
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Monday, November 17, 2008
Last friday TP band concert was great though it was tiring to go band after work. Spend quite abit on cabs. but they are all worth it. Rest on sat and sun.
Today guadated from training wings and got posted to band A. : Im staying in from tml onwards :( not that its bad but its so sudden... I guessed its too sudden. It would be better if its later abit... Ah, nvm. Start early end early. Hope being in a new band everything will move smoothly. Sob sob. Wish me luck.
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Thursday, November 06, 2008
Theory test done, Aural test done, tml is drill test and monday is pratical test. Im so not looking forward to guaduation. Cos guadation means going to band which means another change... I just hope times in band is good. And another thing is that we have to say in... :( Really wish this will be better... I wish everything can improve. Had been busy this week. Everday is a long day. monday, wed, friday has tp band. Hope this concert will be good. ^_^ i've put soo much effort in this.
^_^ i love me! ^_^
