Monday, January 28, 2008
As you can see, nowadays post are slowly decreasing. this shows that how busy i am :( I had MT quiz today and i can feel that i wont score well... Hmm... Later this thursday, i will take my AIA first term test whcich i hope was not as difficute as MT even though they are open book. New year coming just next week but i dont feel anything excitment about it becuase we know that as new year is over, exams is just aroudn the corner. Good thing is that i only have two papers. On the other hand, i am guaduaging soon = NS soon. I keep haveing the feel that NS will be bad... Another this is also holiday is comeing and this means no money :( I dont feel like working leh... and so i have to really save allot now and maybe my one dollar gou gou coin bank have to take out cos maybe this is my last holidayyyy and i am going to go ns. And who knows, maybe i will start working after ns when i am really dont feel like studying... I really odnnot what will happen after ns... with my current result... i could only go out side... I dnno how.... :
Lots have been happening last week, from projects to long lab. That week happen soo fast till i keep feeling of missing the time from last week. I Band-ed most of the time though which is a way for me to feel relaxed, other then the time when the conducter eyed on trumpet section. I cant sight read scores fast :( Hmmm... I also had werid dreams... I keep haveing dream of killing someone, and not long ago, the dream continue about me saying that i wont get caught cos i dident kill anyone. But anyway, that was realyl a strange dream... No gore or blood. Just like before and after nia... Hmmm. Wonder why...
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Monday, January 21, 2008
Last week had napfa... which i actually failed cos of 2.4 If i had got C for my 2.4 i would have got a gold... Sob... Make me put so mcuh effort in it... Now i had cramps till now... Leg still as bad... :(
Jt is emo today... Maybe becasue of a long day... I had lab for 7 hours... Damn tireing... And had band... Which makes it worse bah... But i've nv regrate goign band even when i am sick. Haha. At least i ahd times to enjoy music and relazx... I felt so down today... I dun ahve time to play any form of games... I had report to sumit on this wed. A project next friday... Since when the last time i done any tut... I think this sem is going like shit laio.... Haiz...i think its true that im going to break all of my resulations... I couldent save any money too... When i had save enough a nicer number, i had to spend it, bdays, then cny, then vday... So manythings... i just couldent no matter how i tried... :(
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Friday, January 18, 2008
Well, this week is bad, hectic and full of emotion week... I though this last sem will really pull up my gpa but it turned out that everything suxs... This whole sem, i just dont have the mood to study... To make things worse, this term is sooo packed all thx to the damn bloody block teaching... Just this week, i had 2 AIA report, 1 AIA project, 1 MT project and a MT report which was due today. Wed aia practical suxs cos my group had to rush to do everything and on the way to school on wed, i had the weirdest feeling and its like my mine going crazy but i had it under control with a bit of headach after that. Just on thursday, we had done some of our aia report but nothing much on mt project. And thursday lab was worse then ever!!! I spend damn hours tring to crack my brain to do a simple part of question and its really irreats me. Everythign was shit this week and i just simpily hate it... This is the first time i felt like this... Soo irreated... I just couldent spend a day peacefully. And firday, which is in few horus time, i going to have AIA meeting again and rush for MT meeting. At 1500 for napfa... I just hate this week... I cant wait for week end, i need some band to cheer me up...
To make things worse, another things just happend and nothing turns out right. I just felt so tired... So tired of keep consoleing, so tired of making everyone's day to turn out well, so tired to pamper, so tired of everday. I need a life, i need days which turns out well, i need all those, i've forgotten how it felt being pamper, being happy. I just felt that oen day everything will collespes and break down...
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Wednesday, January 09, 2008
I suddenly felt very bored... Even the thing i like most, i do not have mood for it. I wonder why... Maybe cos i failed my CSAS... But ms chew said theres lots of ppl fail... Highest only 34. I got 18.5 nia. Despite of wanting to get an A, everything seems so screwed up... Its like this is going to be one of my worse sem... :( Im bored of studying all this sub... I wanna go back Aus to do research. Thats the only intresting thing... Im just so lazy to study for term test... Do tut... The feeling now is sooo werid... Sobby... I hope this feeling will go away and back to the study mood... Sian...
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Friday, January 04, 2008
Today trumpet workshop was fun! I totally like it. Learnt allot abt it and i am glad that i dident plan to take up trumpet as a major... Haha. Maybe its just for fun. Hoope one day i would play better too. Practice more and more. ^_^ Nothing much already...
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Wednesday, January 02, 2008
Well, today had six hours of lab doing two exparement. First expariment was just recaping our lab skills. The other another recap of PIA. All of them we had already done it before but i have forgotten... Actually is five hours lar cos our lec give us an hour break for us to have our lunch and i think this is the first time i ate the western at mansa, as in those type of food like chicken cartlut, dory fish ect those kinna western cos it is expensive compared to 2$ chicken rice. Haha. Nods. Tml i had trumpet workshop and is going to be my first time having workshops. Haha. Hope it will be fun. ^_^
I got 28.5/50 for my cre. It was one of the sub which i had abit more confident and i did so badly. :( omg.... Damn depressing. But i always know that i still had chance to get good grades becuase people can fail so many papers and yet score a B+ in the end. Hmm... I really hope so....
Well, yestaday was really a bad day... I couldent sleep cos i was thinking... So badly... Does NS change someone? Its really scary if it does you know, imgine you dident meet this person for two years and suddenly it changes just like that. Doesent that idea scares you? And is my chr that bad now? I really like and love what am i know, i just really understand why would someone even tells you that going ns can changes your chr. What is wrong being what am i? Sometimes i really wished someone would appricate me and my chr. Maybe we are not meant. My true feelings for ytd was so many. I was sad, angry, confused, depressed, bored... All those negative feeling, it seems that i just felt it all in one day. I couldent even tear cos i have been used to all those. Its not a nice feeling have so many and coudent let it out... it just stuck in side me... Then i suddenly missed everything...
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Tuesday, January 01, 2008
Hmmm... I had one of the most boringest day today even though its the first day of the year. Hm... I keep having the feeling of wanting to go out but then go out also nothing to do... Just wanna go out bah i guess, cos its new year day and i dun feel like staying at home. But i ald stay at home le lar. Lol. So nvm... I think i wasted a day at home doing practically nothing useful but slack. Wahaha. Played game till i had nothing to play... Ds also quite sian liao. Watch pokemon but no mood, so watch 1 ep nia. Watch youtube also one ep. Think the most useful thing i did was to play piano. Spend most time playing piano. You know... Bored then play piano mah... Haha. Suddenly, i cant wait for school to start... Tml i had 6 hrs of lab session and i am looking forward to it. ^_^ so strange. Wish it will be fun tml and everything will be better...
What a day to start the year...
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HAPPY NEW YEAR
Weex. Its 2008. I spend the time by chatting and playing dota. Haha. Soo cool. I'm perfectly fine now.
New year resolution!
1. Get A for all my sub
2. Save money
3. Be happy
4. I dun wanna go NS
5. I want a trumpet
6. I want my family to be together
7. I wanna be rich. WAHAHA!
8. I wanna go back aus to do my reasearch! LaLa~
Thats all bah.... Hmm.... Nitez nitez bah. ^_^
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