Friday, July 14, 2006
AHH!!! Crap! My norahS pen no more ink le... Lol! So write here. -_-`
Soo, as i was saying, i got very scare of what will happen to us in the future... She going jc for the first three months and I will stay and help her along with it but then her holiday will be shorter. I know even if she nv go first three months, she will go work but if she work, she will earn more money. Nevermind, she has already decided long ago so i still have one and half months with her, but one thing is that she won't everday accompany me de. Somehow i just know it. She still have her friends, her family and her desly all come before me... I still have school and will have time for her in the evening or sometimes in the morning but is she willing to come my house in the morning to accompany me? Will she come my house in the evening with my parent around? I donno. She normally won't come but next time is hard to say...
Then what if she really want to go JC? It's her choice though... I will be prepared by then le... By then, we won't have time together le. She will have her homework and projects and i will have mine too... Then i wonder how we will survie... Now, i already lidat le... Haiz...
Sataday and sun my parent go Genting, so i was thinking that sweety will come my house just to accompany me cos i really want her to come my house but then she cannot come. I know its not her fault so i cannot be angry with her but i am angry, so i got confused of what i am angry abt... Maybe i'm asking too much from her le but its really very weird being angry with someone but that someone did not do anything wrong. I also dunno what i want but i really want her to come cos i dident go with my parent cos i need her company... sob...
I just found out that I'm not third in her mind but in fact is 4th... So not because i am jealous of him, but you see, compared to a dog, i am overtaken by it -_-` not that i want it... I asked if Desly and i got kipnapped and only got money to save one, which will you save? She answered like both or something -_-` when i wanted only one... Well, in the end it's kinna obvious that i'm still before Desly... -_-` Then later after we were going back, she told me, dunno Desly alone at night will scare anot... Then in my mind was, I'll be alone at home also mah, also dident worry abt me... Yeah lor... Is lidat de lar...
^_^ i love me! ^_^
