Sunday, July 30, 2006
Few billion years ago when the Earth is still contain a supercontinat, two immortal couple walking down the road and somehow the Earth split apart and become the continant like now where both of the couple is in different continant. Though they remain immortal, these two people cant be together. There's these barria between them but does that mean that they are not meant to be together? If these couple are strong enough and start working hard, they will get together. But if either one of them give up, then it means they gave up hope.
This pain, is not like taking a knife and poke and twist and turn. It's not like you can scream out and poof, done with it. This type of pain will acummelate and make you misarable and deprive. Its the core of attitue and personality. Like then you are young, you dont have love. That will affect a person's attitue in seeing things and personality. Sometimes, we do things, not knowing how we hurt and affect people. Somehow abit is alright because thats how we learn. If these pain are long term then all the best. It's phycological, yes. Thats what people called 'getting use to it' but people dont know that they will take over the things they lack of so that they feel better.
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Saturday, July 29, 2006
hm... So somehow, i expected the correct thing. Something i don't really like. Something i dont really hope for. It's like you are running for a race, just that the thing you are competing with is one thing no one can stop; time. I seriously agree that last few days was a killer to me till i today got a headach. -_-` I also donno what the hell happen. Haha. Maybe sleep too much? hm... Worrie also no use, think also no use. It's all already been planed le. Just have to go with it.
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I also dunno why I become so down. I wished i know. Thats why i couldent tell you becuase i dont even know why... Just why? I'm too selfish already... Just after what you told me... You choose JC, you wanted to study hard, all you've been going through. My mine says i will support you but my heart also ach. WHY? Just igrone me k? You got the right to make me lidat. Remeber? Thats why i said before we were together. Would'ent it be nice to have both givers?Try asking why someone is so willing to give? Nevermine... I'll learn from you. Just push them aside. It's true future are just future. Past are just past. If they does not affect one another then whats the point of having them? Well, actually parts are parts. Why they called parts? So that they can be joined together. So thats what i am finding... What i am missing? Hm... Parts are lost too...
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Saturday, July 29, 2006
12:43 AM
你不痛苦吗？
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Thursday, July 27, 2006
Few million years ago, when the earth still lies a supercontinent, there's already life form. Very simple life form... These life form learn to love and stay together and became very united. Maybe far too united. One day, they build a very tall tower that reach the sky. But the more then go up, the more gods got angered because these life forms think that they can be more superial then god and define god. Legendary tower is called the tower of babel. So one day, god decided to distory the tower and make all the life forms speak a different language and so break up the supercontinent to become smaller continent. Wonder why? But no matter what god has done, love is still there. In these small continent, I find that i'm so special. Special that i have you. Of all people, I see you in me. Even though i may expect you too much, but maybe thats why i like it. Everytime i met you, you've learnt. Slowly but still something. I will learn too but i'm still careless... Thats what make us so special.
We may not come form the same background, speak the same way, think the same way, do the same thing or we treat each other differently, I still love. I know that I love you. We may disagree but thats how I learn and I want you to learn too. I've already know this road is'ent easy even before i choose it but i know it will be great. I've decided le. To walk all the way...
I apperciate you and always.
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Sunday, July 23, 2006
You trying to hurt me for fun izzit? -_-`
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Saturday, July 22, 2006
norahS... What should I do? I also wanna put them aside but if i put all those aside then i cannot sleep le cos i dun have anyhting to hug... I dun want sweety to cry le... Cry for happy nvm. But cry cos she sad... Haiz... If she keep on lidat how? one day i should just throw all away those things... all those only hurt sweety... How norahS? What should i do?
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Friday, July 21, 2006
JT house is bOring...
*yawnz*
=p
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Chiong aRH!!!! All chionging projects... Today friday. No lesson. But still have to wake up early to chiong project. LOL! Haha. Is lidat one lar... Haha. Nvm lar. Exam comeing soon le. Then Sem BREAK!!! Lala~ Lol!
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Friday, July 14, 2006
YEAH!!! Sweety said she comeing my house tml le!!! ^_^ Cos her sis dunno why said tml she take care of bro. Then sun sweety take care! YEAH!!! She finally can come my house!!! ^_^ YES!!! MUACKZ!!! SO damn happy! lalalala~
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AHH!!! Crap! My norahS pen no more ink le... Lol! So write here. -_-`
Soo, as i was saying, i got very scare of what will happen to us in the future... She going jc for the first three months and I will stay and help her along with it but then her holiday will be shorter. I know even if she nv go first three months, she will go work but if she work, she will earn more money. Nevermind, she has already decided long ago so i still have one and half months with her, but one thing is that she won't everday accompany me de. Somehow i just know it. She still have her friends, her family and her desly all come before me... I still have school and will have time for her in the evening or sometimes in the morning but is she willing to come my house in the morning to accompany me? Will she come my house in the evening with my parent around? I donno. She normally won't come but next time is hard to say...
Then what if she really want to go JC? It's her choice though... I will be prepared by then le... By then, we won't have time together le. She will have her homework and projects and i will have mine too... Then i wonder how we will survie... Now, i already lidat le... Haiz...
Sataday and sun my parent go Genting, so i was thinking that sweety will come my house just to accompany me cos i really want her to come my house but then she cannot come. I know its not her fault so i cannot be angry with her but i am angry, so i got confused of what i am angry abt... Maybe i'm asking too much from her le but its really very weird being angry with someone but that someone did not do anything wrong. I also dunno what i want but i really want her to come cos i dident go with my parent cos i need her company... sob...
I just found out that I'm not third in her mind but in fact is 4th... So not because i am jealous of him, but you see, compared to a dog, i am overtaken by it -_-` not that i want it... I asked if Desly and i got kipnapped and only got money to save one, which will you save? She answered like both or something -_-` when i wanted only one... Well, in the end it's kinna obvious that i'm still before Desly... -_-` Then later after we were going back, she told me, dunno Desly alone at night will scare anot... Then in my mind was, I'll be alone at home also mah, also dident worry abt me... Yeah lor... Is lidat de lar...
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Sunday, July 09, 2006
LALA~
Yestaday, went to buy my new hp. Haha. Got a N80. Gonna take care my phone!!! Cost me 738. Thought it was 538 then cos of the plan we took is student plan, so is charge as normal price! Shit lor. If i knew is 738 i wound have brought a cheaper phone... Sob... After that walk around at PS then go Stadium for the NDP rehearls. Love the fire works! Thx to Yubin, I got to sit just infrount of the fireworks! Means that the fireworks will blow behind us! So Close!!! so COOL!!! Hehe. Then Sweety and I got hungry and so we search for a place to eat. in the end we walk sooo damn far and end up takeing cab home. HAHA. Cool Man! HEHE. Tired but i dont mine!
Well, Today went for my sis's guadation ceremoney. Omg! it makes me wanna go too. I Wanna study HARD! go to U. And wear what my sis wear. Then i saw people who just guadated for their pHD. OMG!!! their uniform is soo damn bloody cool! I Wanna work for it! I WANNA WORK FOR IT!!! HEHE.
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Saturday, July 08, 2006
I realise, I'm actually lieing to myself, she don't even belive me all along... There goes along everyone... Why should i learn to love? Is it a very good thing? What should i do now? Should i just carry on? I don't wanna leave... No one really trust me... What i do, it's forever not enough...
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Tuesday, July 04, 2006
AH!!! SIan! I hate monday with lab!!! I have to spend three boring hours and it's a waste of time. Worse!!! UO LAB! Worse thing ever!!! Now I Got a headach thx to that then still got band. Wah! It's damn sicko lor... I'm soooo Damn tired but why am i here now?! Nah... Gonna sleep le... NITEZ
What a day...
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