Monday, May 22, 2006
Happy Birthday To You
Happy Birthday To You
Happy Birthday To MEIMEI
Happy Birthday To You
Hehe, Yeeting's bday today. Hehe. Wish her a Happy bday! Enjoy yourself arh... Hehe. Take care. Good luck for everything k? Hehe.
Ok... Hm... Will be damn busy this whole week all thx to projects and quizes... Monday got mini-OSH and mini-ICP quizz. Thx to my maple gang, i got 16/20 for icp. OSH is ok... Haha. Tml Got UO, Wed got ICP, Again. -_-` ET Thursday. Next Tuesday EM, OSH next Thursday... OMG!!! Sian... Today even skipped band to study... Sooo stressed up... Haiz...
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Sunday, May 21, 2006
我不能哭泣只能放弃
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What do you want???
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Thursday, May 18, 2006
It's always Pietrio's fault, but he did'ent give up but instead, carried on and try to bring joy to everyone, try to bring back what it was. He is so trustworthy, full of determination and trust everyone, even strangers... However, he always hurt Narcia when he don't even knows it... All thx to Hyuu, so selfish, wanted Pietrio and just used the people that love her but I somehow admire Narcia, always igrone what she feel but just try to say Hyuu was her friend... Though this anime was really very kiddy, they still hold meaning... Haiz... Somehow, when i watched this show, my heart will ach, touched but why? Soon, Hyuu will understand with the help of Narcia even though they both love Pietrio but what Narcia did was really noble...
A fact of life
No matter how strong a person you are,
you can't go through life by yourself.
So you just try to become as strong as you can,
with friends and family by your side.
And even those people who say sad things like,
"I'm just fine on my own",
they're actually pretty lonely people, on the inside.
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Thursday, May 18, 2006
8:34 PM
PLAH!!!! today really not may day!!! and i dooo damnnnn blooddddyyy hateddd today!!!!!!!! accept for the dream today! hehe. Well, today went for my very first lecture; osh. i guessed it was alright. but the whole freaking 2 hours really freak me out. and whats more, i'm very moody today. i dont know what happen... after that was em. by then, i was already damn restless!!!whats more, i'm wasting my time and was forced to sit like a good boi and listening trigo again!!! omg. i was ald so moody and whats more sooo restless and till have to stay... after that was et. that was same.... but i wasent that restless. cos it's something we don't know. yeah. and after that we went to eat. and thx to my day, i ate chicken rice, AGAIN at business canteen AGAIN!!! and off cos. it dident goes well, i almost feel like vomiting after i finish my meal and end up not drinking my soya bean milk... what a waste.... sobbbbbb. after that went to com lab to print something. and yeah. that goes well, luckly the printer did'ent give me any problem. if not i'm gonna be piss+moody+restless. then i went to band and guess what?! they were having speach day rehareles. then seng tat, ed and amanda shows up. lucky i'm not alone... if not i'll be soooo dmannn moody to the maX!!!! and i'll go crazy! guess what? it still dident goes well... after sooo much waiting, some stoopit principle by the name of krample thinks her ass is not big enough and start thinking herself was BIG! so everyone waited and that includes, teachers, npcc, ncc, gb and off cos the bandmen. that gal wasted sooooooooo many time and thx to her i was even moody. i got sooo pissed offf because i dident played my turmpet and WORSE!!! some bloody smoker borrowed my trumpet!!! and now it stinks!!! WTF!!! i've got to take out all the valve and slides and try to blow out the smelly air!!! and i almost vomit AGAIN! WTF!!! and then we waited and waited, i decided study, but i couldent le!!! cos i was so moody, restless and PISSED!!! AHH!!! WHAT A DAY!!! SOOO DAMN TIRED. And KRAMPLE WASTED MY TIME!!!
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Everyone of us do make mistakes,
but what matter is that the mistakes art are never made again.
This is not the errors of the past,
but the road ahead to which we should pay attention with.
Never cease to reflect on the mistakes,
but striving to learn from them,
and to know the future...
If one is still burdened by the past,
then the future shell forever remain a mystery.
So, pls... Wake up. My dear self... Haiz
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Special entre for someone who is very dear to me... Someone i knew for three years, though not long, i'm very happy that i know her. She is someone so special, till i will have to remeber her forever and kept it in the deepest place in my heart so that i will not forget them. We were suppose to be together, i hoped forever, but i distroy that forever and was hunted by my past now. At that time, we had no choice but to say good bye to each other. She, went to her world of snow that is Light. Me, i went back to my world of darkness. So that i will see her even with the slightest light. But some think we fail to realise is; i will still appear in her world becasue in the world of light, there will be darkness but in the world of darkness there is a possability that there is no light... These means, i am so dependent of her... When she could be so independent... I just wished i would just stay with her in her world... Haiz... only if i did'ent do anything bad... We would still be together... We would stay in a normal world happily... It's happiness, happiness!!! So i just lidat booh~ Could'ent with her le... And thats that... I really wished... hopefully our deal will be good... Really hope!!! Starting of a new jounary may not be so hard, or maybe it has already began...
Romance... What it means???
I carry your heart,
I carries it with my heart.
Now i know... Popolocrois stroy is about love, trust, care and friendship... While i was watching... My heartach... Why??? Does it mean that i'm guilty?
If you plant flower, it do'ent mean it will bloom right?
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Monday, May 15, 2006
Wahaha! actually how long dident blog le arh?! lol. kinna long... haha... dunno what to blog also.
-_-` Well, Today went to band which we though it was an audition, but turned out to be a full band practice... -_-` Cool man! i saw my gc friend and one of the band member from chai chi. LOL! played ross roy. so fun!!! Haha. yeah lor... still got projects and group disscusion to do... sian!!! no time le!!! sob. Haha!!!
I will stay and not moved one... thats is what i am now... no longer happy... just stay with it... i dun think anybody cared also... haha... yeah lor... i think that's the best way now...
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
norahS, should i? maybe... haiz... why must she lie to me last time... haiz... this time, no more le... haha... you must be laughing at me too huh? haha... how pertatic i am... guess we are no more le bah? i should just stop borthering her... i guess i should le... unless she need my help... today, was really happy... really really happy abt it... but i think it's like last time... 29th of june, 2005. that night too. this time was the really really really last time... maybe no more le... but i think no more le... alright... i try to stop to love you. i carring on wid my life... but whats the point? haha. belovered norahS should stop here... i should just close the book le... it will take a very long time... haha. not to love her. attract other gal? yeah maybe... but i dun want that to happen... i dont want le... i will move on slowly this time onwards... Xiao xin is never bad... Xiaoxin is just protecting herself from harm, danger. i think thats good... for sure... shell just protect myself from getting involve... you are just, very different... i dunno how to discribe and i dunno why... haiz... hope i will forget you one day? take care ok? i shell just close this book le... my last page of norahS... good bye... thx for today... for the duet, the songs. i loved it... take care... it's our first time... and so... maybe our last...
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Monday, May 08, 2006
Look at this pom!!! so cute... i wanted to buy one leh... but i dunno how to tell my parent... lol.
Well... today went to watch The Wild. Lol. quite nice. but very short. it's abt lion going to find his cub. somehow like finding memo. Graded B- Hehe. Today lesson only two hours... only tuts. no lab... bloodyhell... i dunno lor... sob... make me bring lab coat... -_-` Then we wanted to go into another movie. couse no ppl see... but they all lar... dun want... -_-` bloody hell... haha. so no free show... sob... Well... after that went home... and i played ps2 for a while. after that my sis wanna watch da chang jing... so i have nothing to do... and i slept!!! omg... i dunno why i so tired... first time in sooo long... i slept!!! haha and i'm still tired... haha... Well Cool man. lol anyway i like the koala in The Wild. so funny. Haha. 
Today, is some special day. I off cause, tresure it the most... I still remember in my deepest side of my heart...
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you!
Happy birthday to norahS!!!
Happy birthday to you!
HEHE. Belovered norahS!!! You erm... two year old le... lol! me crazy le... haiz... i'll never forget today... i mean this date... it means too much to me le... even though we are nothing now le, but i will still tresure it... just like we used to be together... yeah... used tooo bah... but no longer... i just want it again... haiz... however, it's hard... i think everyday say the same thing also no use bah... haiz... but today... is some day... that is very dear to me...
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Sunday, May 07, 2006
ytd was kinna fun... i was wid Xiao Xin. i love being wid her... but i know... this is nothing.... i have to think of nothing too... i like everything of hers... the way she make my hair, the way she talk to me, they way she bong my head... haiz... i like what is it now... but why my heart feeling so werid? only you... norahS... haiz... but i know Xiao Xin and Xiao Xin know me one... she wont want me... i think why i feeling so werid is becasue i feel that we are not together? but... wad is wrong with me? not together then not together lar... issit because i feel unwanted? i also dunno why i feel lidat... like something amissed... maybe because when i read last time de post and ect. bah... haiz... Xiao Xin... if we dun have a chance then say bah... cos now... i feel that there is chance... but i know that it's hard for you to accpet me... these making me mao tun... i know your heart still hurt so much... so much that it has already becomeing a myth... i also dunno why i want you so much.... i love you, i love you, i love you... till other love cant compare... thats why i still love you even though i was wid her... haiz... i though i wound forget you... haiz... but i was wrong... haiz... i'm always wrong... maybe, really no more chance le... haiz... still, im mao tun... sorry norahS... sorry Xiao Xin... i think i be dog and accompany you better... but i will die earlier then her... Haiz... maybe there's no forever... but i want to try... i want to at least try for forever... norahS, i really regrate what i did... too late le... i wanan chagne... but how? HAIZ!!! how long i have to stay like this? four more years? doesent means four more yrs then can be together mah... but... maybe four more years you will be fully recover? by then, i will be working le... haiz... i also dunno what i want... i just wish that im wid you. haiz... but... maybe those are only dreams... that will be reality... haiz... i'm really... lost... AHHHH i want to go beach again. this time i wanna shout out loud!!!
^_^ i love me! ^_^
i went to see doggies yestaday!!! and i really love it!!! sob... but i dun have the money, time, house... sob...
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chio bu... Knn... some idort bought her le... SOB!!!!
haiz... but come to think of it, heng i never buy... i think im not ready... haiz... but seeing doggies also got problem.... haiz... will got flashbacks....then i think start with small dogs first better... and my sis going uk soon le.. sian... i'll be very lonely... haiz... but geting a doggie now also no good... i have to study more... and really go learn bah... but... haiz.. i dun think so le... i dunno how... i'm so mao tun... not that i want... sob... i'm in a mess... haiz...
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Saturday, May 06, 2006
norahS, haiz... today went to kbox... very nice... i like to sing le... haha... though still not very good... but yeah... i still wanna go there... but this time i want to go wid Xiao Xin... so many songs let me remine of her... haiz... tong hua... she taught me how to sing...
haiz...
how could i forget... our promise? haiz... five years later...
first condition:
we must love each other
second condition:
i must not be attached
haiz... well... no need to promise le... she wont want it anymore... we are no more le... why must this be so pain? becasue i made it pain... if only i did'ent do it... we will still be together... though my have problem... but it's the best... no matter how happy relationship could be, but doesnt means it's good... it should be forever... but i ruin it... i ruin my future... yue ding... it's still in my mind... it's still playing... vangance? how long my it last? yes... i still have long way to go... no need to worrie, Xiaoxin... you are really different... i dunno why... is this my destiny? to learn to love properly? my lesson to learn? why must it be so hard... is this depression? haha... i want to go kbox again... i want to shout it all out... but then... no mood to do that le...
i wish i had a time machine... i wanna go back back back... change everything... but i know... something will happen again... are we suppose to be together? how can i not think so much? no matter what... i've hurt her more then this... i will have to be hurt somemore... then i want to break down... i want to rest after that. haiz... i know... no more promise le? haiz... i'm sooooooooo helpless... no one can help me... anything also no use...
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
WAHAHA~! Hi everyone. Hehe. Been very busy last few days. Haha... Finally tutorial day has over... No tutorial till next week. Phiew... So Tired... Mentally tired... So gonna rest for a while. Hehe.
I've found out something! Haha and i'm gonna have fun with it! WAHAHA. This will be great! Wahaha!!!
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
norahS, the more i spend time wid her hor... i started to missed her le... haiz... though i know it's something i shouldent... but i really missed her... what if she feel something towards me... HAHA!!! how i wish right? haiz... haaiizz... it's not her fault for me being lidat norahS. i want to feel like that... because i'm far too guilty... guilty till beyond words... guilty of why am i so stoopit... i dun want anything now... i want her to find someone whom is better. someone whom she feel she could love most. someone whom she feel she could be wid forever... reason why i want her to fall in love wid someone is so that i will get pierced again... i want to feel how she feel... broken heart... shatter my heart pls... i what to feel the way you feel... i want to get my own vangance against myself... becasue i'm the DaRkL0rD...
Xiao Xin... I know you would read this... haiz... but... sorry to say... all this while... you are my light... Haiz... and i can do nothing abt it... cos... soon, this light will glow dimmer and dimmer... then sob sob le... HAAAAAAAA. Haiz... sorry arh... me a bit mad...
^_^ i love me! ^_^
hehe, norahS, today i went study wid xiao xin leh... well, was feeling better when talking to her... i somehow feel enlighten... why? i also dunno how come... but it's true... i somehow thinking of the past even more when i'm with her... haiz... and if it dident happen, we wound still be together... haiz... it's still my fault.... all my fault... now i'm thinking of her when i have nothing to do, thinking of her even when i am playing game... it's comeing back le... how norahS? what should i do to help myself? what do i want? haiz... it's true what i want is my dream... but... i know it wound nv happen or i should say, it will never happen anymore... i guess, i guess, i guess... let me rest... but how long can i stay like that? i guess, i guess, i guess... let her not be reminded of me... how can it be? haiz... yes... i want to be wid her... but i new it wound nv happen... should i? just forget her? haiz... i dun want... after all this trouble... just remeber her bah... for the time being... let her forget me first... Xiao xin... i really cause you much pain... so i will have to bare the same or best more amount of pain... for all i have done to other people... this is the time that DaRkL0rD slowly turn to darkness... seal me up and dun let me out... after the concert... i think i will seal myself up... so now... i want to see her... just the last few times... before the concert... i dunno will it happen anot... but i dun wish too also... haiz... i also dunno what i wanna do... just seal myself up and let time cure me... hopefully it will... let time heal her too... i just wished i wound be a catalyst to heal her... but i'm just... a poison... instead if healing her, i hurt her again... she once said she rather get hurt by other people then me... so i guess i would just seal myself up... haiz... to my own darkness...
i learnt something too, a happy relationship doesent means it's a good one...
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Monday, May 01, 2006
Be a good boi,
Be a good boi,
Be a good boi,
Then pat pat head...
WAHAHAHA!!!
Crazy le... Sob~
^_^ i love me! ^_^
Look at this pom!!! so cute... i wanted to buy one leh... but i dunno how to tell my parent... lol. 
ytd was kinna fun... i was wid Xiao Xin. i love being wid her... but i know... this is nothing.... i have to think of nothing too... i like everything of hers... the way she make my hair, the way she talk to me, they way she bong my head... haiz... i like what is it now... but why my heart feeling so werid? only you... norahS... haiz... but i know Xiao Xin and Xiao Xin know me one... she wont want me... i think why i feeling so werid is becasue i feel that we are not together? but... wad is wrong with me? not together then not together lar... issit because i feel unwanted? i also dunno why i feel lidat... like something amissed... maybe because when i read last time de post and ect. bah... haiz... Xiao Xin... if we dun have a chance then say bah... cos now... i feel that there is chance... but i know that it's hard for you to accpet me... these making me mao tun... i know your heart still hurt so much... so much that it has already becomeing a myth... i also dunno why i want you so much.... i love you, i love you, i love you... till other love cant compare... thats why i still love you even though i was wid her... haiz... i though i wound forget you... haiz... but i was wrong... haiz... i'm always wrong... maybe, really no more chance le... haiz... still, im mao tun... sorry norahS... sorry Xiao Xin... i think i be dog and accompany you better... but i will die earlier then her... Haiz... maybe there's no forever... but i want to try... i want to at least try for forever... norahS, i really regrate what i did... too late le... i wanan chagne... but how? HAIZ!!! how long i have to stay like this? four more years? doesent means four more yrs then can be together mah... but... maybe four more years you will be fully recover? by then, i will be working le... haiz... i also dunno what i want... i just wish that im wid you. haiz... but... maybe those are only dreams... that will be reality... haiz... i'm really... lost... AHHHH i want to go beach again. this time i wanna shout out loud!!!
i went to see doggies yestaday!!! and i really love it!!! sob... but i dun have the money, time, house... sob...