Sunday, April 30, 2006
today go band... then i think i look at her too much... heehee. today she said debbie look more handsome in DP le... i wish i could say you looked even prettier to me... haha... but better not bah... haha... we had to keep a distance... the more i look at her, the more i remeber the past... i was happy for a few months... but now, i feel that i'm just nothing... well, after band, after concert, after her exams, i will disappear for good... for her, to find her happiness? for me to look stoopit? or how i wished i wound just change into another person. just like how narcia transform into kai in popolocrois... i wished those things are real... i wished i could just changed... be a good dog. be someone good... im soo bad... so evil... all i hope to be good... maybe i'm a bad guy in this world... remeber? i will be the one who try to destroy humans... i'm so beasty... i'm like waiting for my last rose to drop and i die... HAHA! haiz...
norahS, i felt extreamly regratful now... haiz... after reading her post... i'm starting to hate myself... could no longer love myself anymore... makeing myself miserable? is that the way to punish myself? how can i do that to myself? after blaming myself, what can i do? she asked me that, but i could'ent answer... i find it so hard to answer... like in and exams answering a hard question...... must it have to be a memories... must it become a story that must be forgotten? what she wrote, is like kingdom heart...
Sora's memories got erase by someone, and was replaced... but things got wrong. no one ever remeber who is sora... until that someone decide what she done is wrong and decided to restore his memories... but the process... so hurting... sob sob... Kairi(sora's secret lover) was the only one who remeber her... but only the name and forget the face and memories... so sad for her.... sob sob...
Haiz... I wished i could change my past... but i know i can't... i could change my future... but... i'm stuck in the present... i'll stay here for quite sometimes... I LOVE YOU, norahS/Sharon. I wished you were there... I wish norahS was real to read this... I Wished i could see norahS.!!!! WAHHH!!! I'm CRAZY! Sob.
^_^ i love me! ^_^
